Mathew and I before he took me to Crown on Saturday :) I love this photo! Quickly becoming one of my all time favorites of the both of us!
I’ve been having nightmares every single night for the past 5 days or so. I haven’t had a “nice dream” in years, and it’s more common to have nightmares the older you get; so the nightmare part isn’t bothering me. However, it’s the type of nightmares that are.
They are all about people close to me. I have had 2 this week about my partner cheating on me with two girlfriends of mine, and last night had a horrific one about my little brother dying and my dad weeping over him. Maybe it’s because I’ve drinking a fair bit lately. Regardless, they’re disturbing. I would like to wake up and not feel like crying for once please :)
I’m in the process of recreating myself. I want to fulfill my individual potential. I want get through and get over all these problems. I want to prioritize and fucking throw myself out there. I’m tired of the excuses I give myself, and lowering my own expectations of myself. I want to be proud of myself. I want people to respect me. I’m going to stick to this for once, and it’ll be the first thing I haven’t completed half arsed. I’m going to have a ball, assert my vulnerability, bite the bullets. I can’t believe it has taken me this long to grow a spine, though then again it’s never too late to change.
Red Flower Corset, $45.30 (AUD)